"I know your anger, I know your dreams, I’ve been everything you want to be, I’m the cult of personality" ~ Living Colour
I recently took the Myers-Briggs personality test and wow -- I find myself fascinating! And, I make much more sense to myself now! But, I think it's safe to guess that most people are at least slightly intrigued by this kind of stuff. Take it because it's very interesting. You will be fascinated by yourself, too! And I don't think it's too rigid -- it's just a framework really. And, yeah, I know this has been around for eons, so most of you are probably familiar. But just in case you're not, you can read more about the test and types here.
According to my test results, I am an INFP, which stands for Introvert Intuitive Feeling Perceiving. Apparently, INFP's make up about 1% of the population. Well, I always knew I was odd.
My mom used to tell me (as an adult) that she thought I might be autistic or have some sort of disorder when I was child because I felt things so intensely. No, I wasn't autistic or mentally handicapped. I was just an INFP. But maybe that's not all that different from being somewhat impaired. I remember experiencing a sort of sensory overload as a kid. Like when we'd go to the beach and I would beg to leave because the ocean-y smell was too strong. Or when I cried because the dripping water from the faucet post-bath was too loud. And that's just the tip of dramatic iceberg.
And now, as a mama, I have a better understanding of why I react in certain ways to Q. I grew up believing I had a very natural maternal side. That mothering would come easy to me. That I'd want to be with my children all the time. Kids liked me. I liked kids. Boy, was I in for a shock. I crave alone time like Buddy the Elf craves syrup. I didn't realize this pre-Q because I always had alone time if I needed it. See, introverts recharge by having alone time. Alternately, extroverts get energized by being around others and prefer to be around people. I do enjoy being social, but balance is key. And Q is very much an extrovert. At least that's what he seems to be so far.
As Q gets older, some of my other aspects may be beneficial. I'll be able to intuit if he's being honest with me. I'll empathize with him when his heart gets broken for the first time (uh oh, I foresee a lot more tears in my future). I'll be more perceptive to his needs in school. Maybe I'm not such a horrendous mom after all. I'm just an INFP who needs to work on her ESTJ.
Now, mind you, I realize this test is far from perfect. I'm more of a sociologist at heart anyway. Here's a little description of my type, which includes some traits that are clearly NOT me:
"INFPs are introspective, private, creative and highly idealistic individuals that have a constant desire to be on a meaningful path. They are driven by their values and seek peace. Empathetic and compassionate, they want to help others and humanity as a whole (well, that sounds lovely, but Mother Teresa I am not). INFPs are imaginative, artistic and often have a talent for language and writing. They can also be described as easygoing, selfless, guarded, adaptable, patient (ha!) and loyal."
If any of you have taken the Myers-Briggs or take it after reading this, please post your results. What did you learn about yourself, my insightful readers?